Day Two and as Debbie Ford says we need to be, FULL OUT!  I love this new term, full out which fits perfectly for this day because after the dream last night about a past lover and doing the exercises this morning.  Well, I'm a little apprehensive about being FULL OUT.  Why? Because this brings personal "stuff" out there for everyone to see, hence the term, FULL OUT.  But my pal Andrea de Michaelis tells me that my personal "stuff" is usually what everyone else is going through too. Bringing it up helps us free ourselves while also freeing others.  So here goes....

Here are the notes from today's live call with Debbie Ford:

• Envision a bungee cord from your body out to the world. Hooking onto things or people that you have done something too or if they did something to you. Envision both parties being supportive while unhooking the connection of this event. TAKE YOUR POWER BACK!
• Shift where we have our attention that is drowning our energy. It's like a hose siphoning vital energy designed to nurture and support you. 
• This is your birth right!  We are holy beings!  When you put your attention on something you nurture it.
• Take the power away from the past, become the present to your deeper desire.  Release that which you desire to bring light to it.
• The negative energy is robbing you of your peace, joy, and magnificence.
• Self awareness can help shine all that has caught us to be caught in the past.
• Anything that is a limitation is there to propel us. (I love this!)  You blame other people because you hear the chatter say it's doable because you've done it.
• Your greatest tool is your inner heart.
• My darkness is an absence of light.  See the light in all of your past!  Acknowledge and accept yourself for taking the time to go into the internal world. 
• Bring light wherever you go it's just a trick of the ego. 
• The whole world will view our negative with darkness.

One of the questions from the participants really stood out for me.  She was having trouble with the terms dark and light because she was relating these words with her father that is black and mother who is jewish.  She referenced these words to her ethnicity and was having a hard time with it.  I loved what Debbie Ford said to her, "Darkness is not really dark, darkness is ignorance.  The only darkness there is is when there isn't a way for light.  One of the greatest issues in the world is multi racial.  Use your shifting as a contribution to the world, a beautiful delicious issue."  I loved this as I have multi racial grandchildren and I love them dearly!  Hell, I have Cherokee in my lineage so who's really pure white blood these days anyway?  I can remember one day driving our daughter and her friends to an event when suddenly we realized that every one of her friends were from different ethnicities.  One thing I taught my children, is to always look at others as if they are looking at themselves.  To not judge them for the color of their skin.  Look past this at the depths of their soul, for we are all one.

Debbie suggests to reflect on your action from the perspective of an impartial observer, enter into a state of reflection while only being aware of your behavior rather than identifying with it.  Observe yourself as if your watching a movie.  Picture your life on a conveyor belt filled with the inventory of your life.  Pick out the parts that you wish you had not done, wish you could forget, wish you could do differently, or behaviors that intentionally or unintentionally harmed others. 

Wish I had never done list:

• Wish I had not had sex at such an early age.
• Wish I did not strewn my best friends undies over the stop signs. (Glad she still loves me! I love you gal!)
• Wish I had not smoked all that weed!! (Maybe some of our presidents would do well to take this course. Save us all a bunch of gossip time on the news!)
• Wish I had not stole change from that sweet lady next door. (Her and I made peace with this.)
• Wish I had not blown up at one of my family members friends.

Suddenly I realize that some things just do not matter to me anymore. I don't associate feelings with these events. I have worked through the pain or torment to find peace within.  Guess it's all the years of self improvement work but I also know that work will always be needed because Shift Happens everyday.  I could see where someone would take inventory of their lives and realize that they have forgotten something because they got away with it so many times that it becomes repetitious which turns into a habit.  You then believe this inventory item to be true and good. 

Wish I could forget: That my biological father never tried to contact me. Although, I have an amazing father that has been in my life since birth.

Wish I could do differently:

• Taken more time for traveling. (I've been working on this.)
• Taken time for writing. (Again, something I have been working on this past year.)
• Treating my body as a vessel of God.

I find myself working through this process quite easily and not worrying about what others may think about posting this on my blog.  I WANT to get the "stuff" out and free myself of the bandages that are covering my soul's intent.  You know I think I will pull out the furniture this weekend and clean out the dust and doggy hairs that I silently sweep underneath when company  is coming over.  Not really, but I like to paint pictures for others so they understand that "clutter" and "stuff" lowers our energy within a home just as it does within our bodies. 

After completing day two I could see where someone may drop out after day three because day two is IN YOUR FACE!  Just as Debbie says; see your soul, watch as if your viewing a movie, detach your feelings or connection to the person, only view it.  This reminds me of a past life regression that I did last year where I was viewing this lifetime without judgment, just viewing and working out the details with others.  I found that I was catching myself leaving out things because I did not want to bring up events from my past that could possibly hurt others. But I realize that this in turn brings it to the surface to bring light to the situation.

• Being called names and stories told during and after divorce.
• Letting my son leave to live with his father during his teens.
• Being fired during my sons surgery.
• Family members not including me in events.

I would relive these events in my mind and feel guilt of what I could have done different. Through all the work I've been doing with energy I know it's not healthy and in the past I have given it power over my life. Where energy goes, energy flows! 

My intention and mantra for the day was: I have the light of God within me. I have the light of God within me. I have the light of God within me.  (Mantras are typically repeated, thus the three repetitions.)

Love Potion for Day 2
1 cup of water
1 tsp of agave
1 cup of blueberries

Day 2 Lesson on Oprah.com

Sweet dreams to all!
Kandi Phillips
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